I'm Not Okay is a fanfic written by Raven, originally hosted on her fanfic.net profile. While she was helping Tara with My Immortal, she worked on her own story. While featuring superior grammar and spelling, and slightly more consistency with the Harry Potter canon, it still features many of the same tropes that My Immortal used, i.e. goths and preps. It seems both girls liked using the middle name "Dementia" for their main characters.
Also, Raven inserted a mutual friend of theirs called Filly in the story as "Shadow", presumably yet another goth in their social circle. This is the same "Fily" that Tara once thanked in a later author's note. Whether this Filly wrote any stories of her own is unknown.
It was first published on February 16, 2006, around two weeks before Tara would publish My Immortal. The final chapter was posted on April 6th of the same year. It lasted for five chapters, and judging by the author's note in Ghost of You, Raven got bored while writing the story, around the same time she and Tara had a falling out and wrote-out their friend's self-inserts (Willow for Raven, Elvira for Tara).
Despite being labelled as a 'CDF' (Cirque du Freak) crossover in the synopsis, it was not actually posted as a crossover with that fandom on its original posting, instead solely in the Harry Potter category.
Original synopsis[]
In this tragic story a gothic girl comes to Hogwarts and falls in love. CDF crossover. I suck at summaries lol, please r&r.; NOT for preps. T 4 swearing, sexual content to come later and cutting.
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